Experiencing a new (negative) emotion - what is it?

If you're out on your own now, and getting out of your usual support group, you may be feeling some alientation and competitivness; at least more than you used to. It is a dog eat dog world. So I think this is just not all in your head, and I think the answer is to rely on what support you have, or can nurture around you, to a greater degree for encouragment. As we age we become more heterogeneous. That is less like and a part of those around us. Find those who are like you and rely on them. Good luck!